SinisterRomance7: when are you coming down?
Testament Rose: I have no intentions of going back to Florida, ever.
Testament Rose: but if you ever come to new york be sure to get in contact with me wont you? it would be so nice to see you again.
SinisterRomance7: Jessy said a couple months ago that you may be coming
SinisterRomance7: she also said you tend to change your mind a lot
Testament Rose: not about this
Testament Rose: and if Jessy is telling you things that aren't, then you should watch out
Testament Rose: lol
Testament Rose: she's probably trying to get something from you
SinisterRomance7: such as?
Testament Rose: not that she is conniving or anything, but i see no other reason for her to tell you that
SinisterRomance7: hmm don't know
Testament Rose: when are you coming to new york?
SinisterRomance7: but what do you mean by get something from me?
SinisterRomance7: not anytime soon
Testament Rose: well the only reason someone ever lies is to get something form someone, lying can be such a selfish sin that way.
SinisterRomance7: but what do you think shes trying to get from me?
SinisterRomance7: i have nothing to offer
Testament Rose: hey its just a thought
Testament Rose: im not saying that its true
Testament Rose: and don't sell yourself so short
Testament Rose: a person would always have a lot to offer
Testament Rose: it doesn't have to be material
SinisterRomance7: nothing to offer her
SinisterRomance7: is what i meant
Testament Rose: ok
Testament Rose: but i bet i could name things you have to offer
SinisterRomance7: such as?
Testament Rose: well when a person lies to someone else is usually to get their time, which is priceless when you think of all the ways that time could be spent especially if your spent time is something of interest to the person lying, get it? then there's friendship, some people lie to get it. then there's gullibility, another thing which is priceless since with gullibility you can get away with murder.
Testament Rose: there's just too many things to list
Testament Rose: but enough of that, tell me whats new with you? how's life with the boyfriend?
SinisterRomance7: great our one year is tomorrow
Testament Rose: hm
Testament Rose: i hope all goes well
SinisterRomance7: i hope so too...
SinisterRomance7: what was with the hmm?
Testament Rose: i think the best relationships are the one that don't last very long
Testament Rose: but to each his own right?
SinisterRomance7: in what way do you think the best relationships are ones that don't last long?
Testament Rose: heh, in every way. nothing that lasts long is valuable and almost everything lasts for ever, immortality reigns in abundance in this world.
Testament Rose: only things which are scarce and short lived are truly valuable, life, money in the hands of the poor, good health, gold.
Testament Rose: passion is great at its maximum and after its reached people lose interest in each other and take their separate ways, a short lived romance has all the passions of the world with out all the messy break ups of a long term relationship
SinisterRomance7: hmm i guess
SinisterRomance7: but then again there is that select few that will always have that passion
SinisterRomance7: they rekindle their passion
Testament Rose: no, there's no such thing, only the hope of it, but it never really happens. people are not candles lol
SinisterRomance7: my aunt has done it
SinisterRomance7: been with the same man for over 30 years and is still madly in love
Testament Rose: maybe you'll understand it when your older, most people in long term relationships are in love out of necessity more than they are out of passion. its very hard to let go of something you have grown accustomed to, and when your old and you have been married for years and wondering why they hell doesn't he EVER change the toilet paper when its done. you'll probably think back to your youth, to the moment you first met some guy that you dated and remember how you felt doing things with that person be it dirty or not and then you'll realize that just the thought of that guy is making you blush
Testament Rose: that's when you'll say "fuck testament was right"
Testament Rose: lol
SinisterRomance7: i don't want to think that way
Testament Rose: and you shouldn't, its awfully dreadful but its true, life is so unfair that way
SinisterRomance7: i try to think in the positives
Testament Rose: so do i, believe or not that WAS the positive way of looking at things
SinisterRomance7: i beg to differ
Testament Rose: i don't think i could take it i i thought that the world around me was full of death and misery
Testament Rose: how so?
Testament Rose: go ahead and differ
SinisterRomance7: with what you said before that
SinisterRomance7: that you were thinking in the positives
SinisterRomance7: why would you think that people can't still have that passion many years later...it is possible
SinisterRomance7: its rare but it is possible
SinisterRomance7: i don't like to think that there isn't a way that a couple can still be passionate after years and years together
Testament Rose: well if you don't like to think it then simply don't, there's certainly no reason for you to do so.
SinisterRomance7: i don't
Testament Rose: but i am no pessimist, i think that a person can experience passion many times over in their lifetime and this thinking comes from observation.
Testament Rose: i take it as i see it
SinisterRomance7: i do as well with my relationship
Testament Rose: things simply lasts too long for my taste and there are too many things that lasts for ever.
SinisterRomance7: what last forever to you?
Testament Rose: almost everything, with the exception of our conscious
Testament Rose: everything else seems to have no end to its lifespan
SinisterRomance7: yea...
Testament Rose: take you for example, at your end you will be buried, eventually your body will decompose and become part of the ground, this in turn will give life to grass and other types of plants these plants will be eaten by bugs and the bugs will be eating by birds or other animals, people might eat the animal and then you will become part of that person, until they die and back to the earth you go, everything comes from the earth and eventually to the earth everything returns, its a vicious cycle of immortality
Testament Rose: and we cant escape it.
Testament Rose: our conscious is another matter
SinisterRomance7: that's true
Testament Rose: we are born and it takes us about 14 to 20 years to become fully aware of what's going on with ourselves, then we start learning of the world and by that time is almost over, on average a human life lasts what? 70, 80 years? which seem like a lot but if you think about it that means you only get to see 70 winters, 80 valentines, 80 Christmases and by the time you realize this you have about 50 to 60 left
Testament Rose: and there's no telling what happens to your conscious when you die, it might as well not exist anymore.
SinisterRomance7: i guess you have a good argument
SinisterRomance7: i agree with most of it
Testament Rose: and in those 70 winters i think you can find passion with many people and each passion is as unique as the person itself i think its miraculous that we have the ability to break up and move on to another love story, and you think im being negative because of it, simply because you prefer to believe that its better to spend those 70 winters with the same person, i don't think i could ever deny another person the experience of diversity and i will definitely not deny it to myself, i think you're the pessimist
Testament Rose : not me
SinisterRomance7: i am in most cases...
Testament Rose: lol
Testament Rose: i feel like I've been talking to death
SinisterRomance7: i guess in the sense that i have been fucked over by men so many times i guess with this one i want to see things in the positive way
SinisterRomance7: i cheated on my boyfriend twice with the same person
SinisterRomance7: not because i was lonely or wasn't happy it just happened
SinisterRomance7: i felt that in the past i had that passion but after realizing the mistake that i had made i devoted myself to be...
SinisterRomance7: different
Testament Rose: you cant force yourself to be passionate, that's just lying and one of the worst kinds of lies at that.
SinisterRomance7: im not pretending anymore
Testament Rose: cheating has nothing to do with love at our age
SinisterRomance7: i know...
SinisterRomance7: to this day i still don't know why i did it
Testament Rose: young people want to be loyal but don't and old people try to be cheat but cant!